such a long period i didn't come here and write down my feelings.
hmmm.
degree life.
am i made a right decision?
i know, there is no point if i keep thinking it in this way.
Regret.
"regret" this word shouldn't be appear in my mind in my heart anymore.
i force myself don't think like that.
But, my feelings, my heart, all seem like out of control.
Stress.
STRESSFUL life.
full of stress.
how come?
who ? who said hospitality course is easy?
who said ?!
liar.
it never be truth.
Hospitality never is an easiest course.

This semester, i really felt myself very weak.
why? why i can't be like others, so smart, speak so  fluent in English.
why?
goh chin pheng, what you afraid about?
when u can stop all those nonsense, and bad behavior?
why u can't like your other friends full of confident?
why not?

In the other hand,
somehow i really don't know what i am interested with
funny right?
21 years old.
Future.  What is that?
what does it means to me?
In these 21 years, what i had did?
 what i had learned?
why seem like nothing.
sometime, i wish to stop everything.
stop all these academic, stop all this future thingy.
what the hell.

i am wishy- washy person.
i wish to be a successful person
but, i scared of changes
i scared of speaking infront of people.
mayb i have a very high self esteem.
i dislike people look down on me
to prevent this, so i choose don't to speak english
because worried people will laugh at me.
think i am so stupid, think i am low grade.
i don't want!
i just want like my classmate
able and dare to speak out.
why you just can't do it?
why????

stress,
all this stressfulness already stay with me for half year more i think?
and i know, more and more are coming towards me.
goh chin pheng, be strong ok?
just stay with it, cope with it
this semester is hard.
but if u able to across that.
then nothing is impossible.

GOALS:-
be confident, be independent, study more, be dare to speak!

sometime i really don't know is it my english was really bad or just because of i lack of speaking in english. so thats why i am so weak.
is it ?
haih. tired.
too much things to do.
brochure, assignments, exams, and the killer- dissertation.
my degree life.

i wish i don't be so emo anymore.
is time to awake.
be brave
brave BRAVE!
okay?
yea, degree is tiring, but try to make it fun and enjoy it.
you can make it. be hardworking!