hmm..
start from today is my real kl life..
papa mama just now go back to bm dy..
bro and ah sou go work dy..
left me alone in the house..
hmm..
goh chin pheng..
is time to get ready..
arrange everything..
your mood, you brain...
everything..

sigh*
sometimes,
i really dont know i emo what..
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a lot la..
like my family, my studies..and....
is it i let him affect me again?
:/
seem like got bit..
last time me message me ..
till now..
sometime i still wish saw his message..
O.O
crazy..
what am i thinking?

he is not a good guy..
he is not suit you..
why u still want keeping give a hope there?
dont know why,
i feel i still got put a bit ..a bit bit lar..
a bit bit hope for there..
:/
i still will wish can saw his message..
although i know even i receive his message i also wont reply him properly or in a nice way?
haah
actually i also dont know what i want..
i wish to see him still got care me..
but i not really want together with him..
can say..
just hope he still got bit like me, i am still inside his heart?
LOL
i think maybe before let you hurt too much dy..
always i am the one who love, who like, who give more..
but you are not really been that..
so that is why now i got this so bian tai eh thinking?
=/
haih..
i also dont know what i want..
maybe i am still wish..
i your heart,
i am still valuable for you..
i am still a person who can affect your emotion a bit..
just wish that..
maybe before i too love you dy..
so now just feel wanna like that huh?
haah..

sometimes,
i really will think about you..
through some drama..
through some sentences..
but very fast, the scene all will gone la..
come fast, go fast..
haha
haih..
he already got gf..
and is together for a long time dy..
and he still cheat you..
since now he can start to intro his gf to his other friends..
means between he and she is not a simple relationship as he said before dy..
so, u get it?
please,
dont want to have those bian tai thinking anymore okay..
what you want now??!
okay..
clam down okay?
clear your mind..
he really not suit you..
please..
you will meet the better one..
okay?
:)

i know i should put down and forget you..
i know i can do it..
i know i can!
just sometime my mind ,my heart cant really control everything..
cant handle all the feelings and memories..
alright,
i know..
i will give myself some time to recover..
:)

no worry..
goh chin pheng..
21 years old dy..
you should learn to be very strong very strong..
a very tough person!
yea?
YES!
Be happy..